Chris,
I hope you do try again, and this is coming from someone who has felt silenced. If you are in pain, there might actually be some relief. My therapist, and others’ have suggested the “opposite” approach, which is what GP might be suggesting, too. If you’re normally silent, try speaking (sorry for repeating, just trying to reinforce). My take on the opposite approach is that if what you’ve been doing all along gets the same result, it has helped me to do something different.

I just heard the pain, and offered my 2 cents, in the spirit of not being alone. Hope that’s ok.

I just want to say that perhaps your slip was showing, sometimes mine is around my ankles, but my sharp, reproving looks and throwaway lines keep anybody from pointing out the obvious. But some of what was showing was the way in which you are unique and proud of it, and sober because of it. That doesn’t have to mean terminal.

There is a balance in your posts, as far as I can see. I want to say, “Keep the____” but I don’t know how to fill in the blank. My lapse. But just keep it, whatever it is.

Since recovery alone isn’t working for you, why not try something a different? Go to a meeting and speak. Ask for help. What you’ve written in your comment is a good, honest place to start. I can absolutely guarantee that everyone in the room will understand how you feel.

If you do, it’d be cool if you’d post back and let us know how it went. Besides, it sounds like you won’t be worse off, other than being embarrassed in front of a room full of sex addicts (or whatever your drug of choice is). You won’t die from embarrassment but you might die from addiction.

And for those who are wondering how the hell you die from sex addiction, generally it’s suicide. Sometimes hep C or AIDS. Sometimes rough sex that gets out of hand. Sometimes an anonymous encounter with a murderer. But usually it’s suicide.

i don’t feel that i could ever go back to a group like that again, it wasn’t there fault, its just the way i feel.