I really like the books Laurence Gonzales has written about survival. I’ve just read the most recent, which is all about human resilience after traumatic events. What was healing for me in reading this book is the realization, backed by science, that surviving trauma is not easy. In fact, some of the very things that our brains and bodies to that enable us to survive in the first place can, in time, make our lives a living hell.
There are some very concrete things we can do to help ourselves after a traumatic event. Did you know that learning to knit is more effective in calming the traumatized brain than talk therapy? Also therapeutic: writing, as in blogging.
I got to thinking about how important this blog was to my recovery of my self and I felt this overwhelming wave of gratitude toward everyone who has ever read one of my posts. I wish there was a way that I could thank you for witnessing my pain and growth over the years. I hope that my words have offered some hope that life can go on after addiction and after trauma. I hope that sharing how my thoughts have changed over time has helped someone.
I still have a lot of anger at some of the things that have happened to me. It wasn’t fair or right. But I’m a lot better now and I have a really good life. I’m grateful to be surviving my survival and I wish the same for you, dear reader.