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Just for today

Just for today is something you hear a lot in recovery. For a person who knows that life is unmanageable while they’re drinking, drugging, gambling, acting out sexually, it’s a no-brainer to know how to make things better: just stop. Unfortunately,

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My spiritual awakening to atheism

Have I mentioned recently that I’m grateful to be an atheist? Life is so much more precious now, since this is the only one I’ve got; no do-overs in heaven. I don’t have to waste any of it rationalizing the

Posted in atheism, my journaling, sex addiction, therapy

Hello World

  I’ve been seeing a new therapist closer to where I live. It’s nice not having to block out a half day to go to therapy. I can get to his office in about 10 minutes, which is really convenient.

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Returning to Therapy

It’s been strange, returning to therapy. I thought I was done with all the navel gazing and unpacking, and re-framing. None of that shit is much fun, plus I’m taking a chance that I could be hurt again. My new

Posted in my journaling, relapse, sex addiction, sexual addiction

Art Therapy

One of the hardest parts of going to a residential treatment facility was the impossibility to avoid the “touchy-freely shit.” That would be things like art therapy, meditation, standing on a chair shouting out affirmations. We had group exercises on

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No title.

I have homework from the new therapist. Did I mention that I’m seeing a new therapist? Yeah. He’s much closer to my home, 5 minutes vs. 2 hours. Here’s a positive sign: I haven’t had a panic attack during any

Posted in 12-step recovery, atheism, i had sex with my therapist, my journaling, non 12-step recovery, rants, recovery tools, relapse, residential treatment, sex addiction, sexaholic, sexual addiction

I’m glad my husband will take care of his own needs

I spent some time talking with my husband today. I wanted to know how he was doing with me resetting my sexual sobriety. We have an agreement that I be honest with him about my acting out, and I’ve been

Posted in gratitude, my journaling, relapse, sex addiction, sexaholic

Just Thinking

You know what sucks about a good therapist? They call you on your bullshit. I’ve decided I need a tune up, so to speak. I’ve been trying to rationalize porn, masturbation, and my whole perspective on recovery and sexual sobriety.

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This is a rambling post that says pretty much nothing. It’s more of a journal entry than anything else, which I wouldn’t normally post. But since I’ve recently had a slip, I’m trying to be more open and honest and

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