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I’m ready for spring to be here

I spent a few hours today thinking about redoing my inner circle. But here’s the thing. I don’t really have good sobriety on all the behaviors in my inner circle right now and I know that addicts who redefine their

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Today’s Rambling Post, in which I wish to share a great quote but somehow fail to make a broader connection that would show me to be erudite. Several colons were harmed in the editing of this post.

I’m often asked how I can be in recovery and an atheist all at the same time. How do I work steps? Do I actually work the steps or just give them lip service. What about step 11? Do I

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O ne D ay A t A T ime I didn’t drink, but I did lose my cool and smash a egg on the floor. Real mature. My dear husband wasn’t fazed in the least, but I was pretty shocked

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So I go to this meeting, right? I know that there’s a certain amount of god-stuff I’m going to hear because it’s 12-steps. Okay. But this guy just went on and on and on and on about the big, big

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No title.

I have homework from the new therapist. Did I mention that I’m seeing a new therapist? Yeah. He’s much closer to my home, 5 minutes vs. 2 hours. Here’s a positive sign: I haven’t had a panic attack during any

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Good Evening

What a day. Why the heck doesn’t life let up when you need it too? I had to deal with nonsense at work to a ridiculous degree. For fuck’s sake, a small group of grown women have to fight over

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Do I really have to keep going to meetings for the rest of my life?

The short answer is no, but you should. That makes for a dull blog post, so (of course) I’ll elaborate. Lately I’ve been doing very well. It’s unexpected because I just had a relapse and I figured I’d be right

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Feedback Sucks

One of the problems I have with 12-step groups is that I have a hard time balancing acceptance with feedback. When you go to a meeting, one of the time-honored traditions is that there is no cross-talk. That means that

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Just for the rest of today.

I’ve recently been hit with unexpected porn. The first time it wasn’t a real big deal. I was looking for a custom folder icon to make one of my desktop folders stand out better. Specifically, I wanted a xp style folder that had a nice dollar sign for all my financial documents. Wouldn’t you know, somebody out there has created a whole slew of really nice xp folders with pinups peeking out. And that’s with all the safe search parameters turned on! Still, no harm, no foul. I had a laugh, was grateful that I’m doing so well and that I’m not as trigger-able as I used to be.

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Whiskey in my milk.

  So here was today’s brilliant idea. I could download an erotic “book” from to listen to during my workout. wtf? For those who read the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, there’s a story about a guy who’s doing

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